The Deep Dark Hole

I never thought I would be in that place, not ever again ! But we really don't have any say in how our lives go and what things happen to us. I slipped...and fell right into that black hole again.

It's been quite a few days, but I'm at the top !! I see the sunshine now, and all I have to do is boost myself up and stay out of there.

Staying away from Face Book is the best thing for me at this time. I won't be 'de-activating' my account like last time, but will just leave it until such time that I'm comfortable to be back there. UPDATE: I will never be "comfortable" in FaceBook. It's currently de-activated. May 21st end of update.

I have not even sang in SingSnap for  a week! I have'nt talked much on the phones,  and have'nt felt like blogging lately.

I hate that place so much in the deep dark black hole. It takes absolutely all the strength I have to climb out of there!

Yesterday was May 1st so I celebrated out in the sunshine and 90* temps and Scoot and I rode down to  an area of St Pete that not many people know about. This was the first 'beach' I took my son Robby to when we moved here from Michigan and his daddy left us to fend for ourselves.

My friend and neighbor , Bob, went with me. We stopped at the little  neighborhood store on the way to the beach and another area of Tampa Bay, and bought chips and soda and Bob got a beer. Then we drove ( Bob walked) on the rest of the way down to the waters edge.

 There was a great blue heron that I videoed and have up in YouTube. Four nice hours away was great and helped so much. This is a long way from where we live , but Scoot was fully charged and made it there and back just fine.

Later on this afternoon, Scoot and I will be going for another ride in another area of St Pete. This is a great way to avoid "the deep dark hole."

What caused all of this? What made me slip and fall into the darkness ? It's clear to me. I have to deal with this !! And that, I will do.